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Living, Hoping and Dreaming after miscarriage……….

so after the wait…. December 9, 2008

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I m pregnant!…..yes , it was confirmed by a blood test on Monday…The news are still sinking in…..I am Happy, and consider myself to be extremely lucky! I know I am so thankful……The thing is I m scared….Scared of being happy, and scared of what I know can happen…..So I m trying to be as relaxed as I can, and hopefully this will be a succesful pregnancy….If you re reading this, please keep me in your prayers!!!



Waiting to POAS… December 5, 2008

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Soooo…Still waiting…I´m now 12DPO I think….not really 100% sure…So I´ve been getting daily progesterone shots since Monday! , only 5 days and I´m REALLY sore….anyways, my OB asked me to get a blood pregnancy test on Monday and we´ll see…So yesterday I was really stressing about it and I got a HPT, so at around 11:30 I did the test…Now I know maybe it was kind of early, and also it wasn´t the first urine of the day….anyways I´m pretty sure it was a BFN, I´m saying this, cause i waited for about 10-15 minutes, and I THINK, I might have seen a very very very faint line….It´s crazy the things we do!! I was holding the HPT against the sun from the window, with a flashlight, in different rooms with different lights!!! so I think I might have seen a very very faint line, wich was almost nothing….It´s really confusing!…so I decided to take one again tomorrow with the first morning urine, hoping it will be a CLEAR BFN, or hopefully a CLEAR BFP!!….DH wants me to wait until Monday for the blood test, but I just need to know what to expect…Don´t wanna take a blood test, and stess out all day until I get my results!… Ás for pregnancy signs not sure since I´ve had a cold for three days… My temps have been up, FErtility Friend has been showing a Triphasic behavior, but  then again it can also be cold related….Í´ve been feeling sleepy and dizzy, with a little nausea, but my OB told my I could experience that because of the progesterone shots!… so as you can see, there´re nothing very realiable right now……..I´ll keep you posted, and keep me in your prayers!!!!!



TWW??? November 24, 2008

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So not sure but I might be on my first TWW since my miscarriage…. My OPK was positive on Sunday, CD20, and my temp had a rise on sunday morning and today….I´m thinking yesterdays rise was because of me getting a cold….and today, not sure if it´s that I ovulated or still the cold….not sure what to think, but I´ve decided not to stress about it, since everything i could do it´s done….so I now have to get a progesterone test on 7DPO, and we´ll se if we start the progesterone shots……so not much to do but wait , and try to be as stress free as I can……DH has been reminding me that this is our first try, and it might take us several months, and that is perefectly normal….of course I really really hope is as soon as it can be, but I have to be pacient and hopeful that ít´ll happen soon……



Soooooo confused!!! HELP November 23, 2008

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So I´ve been doing the OPK since CD 12, yesterday it was CD19 and I had totally lost hope, and thought this might be a cycle without ovulation, maybe because of the BCP of last month….so Yesterday the result of my OPK was clearly negative at 2:00, but if you looked really close you could see that the top of the line was slightly darker than the rest of the line, but I´ve read that the line has to be AS DARK or darker than the reference line…..Also since yesterday I´ve been feeling like I´m getting a cold, and my throat has been really really sore…So today I take my temp as usual, and is higher, so inmediately think that I maybe ovulated yesterday, but then, I might be getting sick, so don´t know…..Anyways I decided to take an OPK, and I think it is now positive (I´m attaching a pic, tell me what you think!), it is as dark as the reference line especially on the left border of the line…..sooooooooooo, here´s the dilemma did I ovulate yesterday, or I ´m about to ovualte and the temp rise was beacuse of my sore throat???? AS you can see I can´t stop thinking about it, mainly because if I´m about to ovuate, I BD this morning so I think I´m covered, but if I ovulated yesterday SAturday, I BD on thursday night but couldn´t on friday and saturday!!!! Anywasy, I´m calling my ob tomorrow, see what he thinks and I guess I´ll start the progesterone shots tomorrow!!!!!!! WISH ME LUCk, and hopefully I´m about to ovualte today!!!!


sooooooooo confused!!!! HELP

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Hating OPK´s…. November 19, 2008

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 So, I´m on CD 16….still no positive OPK….on my last 5 cycles i´ve been ovulating between days 14 and 16…Only after my miscarriage I had a late ovulation on CD 26… not sure whats going on…..I think it might be that I was on BCP last month…Maybe ovaries are taking their sweet time to ovualate!!! don´t know, but I´m getting a little bit frustrated of POAS every day, to see a very very faint line… I guess I´ll have to wait, and I hope I DO ovulate this cycle…..I´ve been getting more CM since yesterday so hopefully that must be a sign that it´s coming…..I guess what´s stressing me out is that I need to know exactly when I ovulate, if I ovulate, so I can call my OB and start the progesterone shots1!!! so , I hope tomorrow I´ll have better news!!!!  Keep me in your prayers!!

Hope everyone is doing great!!!




OPK & PIO November 18, 2008

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So basically I´m just waiting to get a positive OPK….I was just checking FF and for the past months I´ve been ovulating between day 14 or 16….Right now I´m on cd14…so far the line on the OPK has been really really faint….so I don´t know if this cycle will be as the other ones, or if this will be somewhat different due to the fact that I was on BCP last cycle, trying to get rid of my cyst, which I thankfully did!… I´ve also heard of some women doing opk´s twice a day, so they don´t miss the surge….so I thought I might start doing that!!! any advise on opk´s????? so, there´s not much I can do, but wait for a + test, and BD every other day!!!!    I´ve also been looking for info about PIO shots (Progesterone in Oil), I will be starting this after I ovulate, since my Ob thinks I have a short luteal phase (11 days) and might have a prog. deficiency….I was actually pretty scared of this shots, since my tolerance to pain is not very good…So I found some interesting videos on you tube, and after seeing a bunch of them I´m not as scared and actually I´ve found very good tips on how to try to make it as pain free as possible…what amazes me is that some of them are actually giving the shots themselves!!!!! I´m so scared of needles that I don´t know if I´ll be able to, and thankfully DH has agreed to do them….so here are some of the links in case you´re interested….